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“You will do what I say,” I insisted, when my body faltered.“How can I trust you?” I scolded, when I didn’t conceive a child right away. “I hate you,” I spat, as my body delivered disease and illness. “I control you,” I gloated, as I swallowed pills. “I need you,” I cried, as my life fell apart. “I hear you,” I admitted, as I took a careful step inward. “I’m in awe of you,” I bowed, when my body revealed its innate strength. “I love you,” I whispered, as my body and I merged.
Keri Mangis (“The Blue Nude” by Henri Matisse.)
Portrait of a Mother
The woman in the painting stares at a baby cradled tenderly in her arms. When I was young, I thought it was a portrait of my mother holding my brother. When I was older, I asked. My mother said it was just an image she loved. But it looked so like her, down to the gentle curve of her lips. That picture is mine now and when we were looking for a place to hang it in my new home, my mother said, “I’ve always loved this painting. It reminds me of my grandmother.”
Katelyn Thomas (Painting by Mary Stevenson Cassatt)
View from the Nest
I swaddled my newborn in teddy bear flannel and rocked him to sleep after a two am feeding. I cradled him in the dark in a state of bliss, dreaming of his future. First steps, first words, first books. Best friends, braces, teenage bravado. Off to computer camp, off to college, off on his own. Thirty years later he drops by for dinner, sporting his unshaven weekend cool. He laughs about politics, chats about changes at work, shares plans for Australia, and I see the light in his eyes as he dreams about his future.
Karen Zey (Photo by Nathan Dumlao)
Yesterday morning my cat scratched my pinky finger. Bright red blood bubbled up from the cut. My husband was about to walk out the door to work. “Don’t leave while I’m bleeding!” I called out. He returned. I held a Kleenex to my pinky and applied pressure. When the bleeding stopped, he carefully wrapped a Band-Aid around my little finger. “You can go now,” I said. And then my husband left. That’s what marriage is all about – staying during times of active bleeding.
Dara Dokas (Photo by Federica Diliberto)
Because I was small, no one thought I was stealing. Just a moment detached from the hand of my mother; an anonymous criminal lurking out toward the candy, slipping the first thing I saw down the front of my jammies. “Your son has M&M’s by his penis.” No one was likely to say such a thing. That accusation would likely blow back in ways the accuser would struggle to answer. Waxy paper digging into my skin, I’d find my mother’s hand once again. “You never nag me to buy you a treat.” Her pride was magnificent. “Such a good boy.”
Will McMillan (Photo by Patrick Fore)
Good Deed Doing
“Lady, Lady!” I glanced around to see a man seated in a wheelchair anchored by a case of Schlitz, wedged in a pothole. As I attempted to right the chair, it tumbled over. The victim and his beer lay sprawled on the ground. The old adage, “No good deed goes unpunished” came to mind. Just then, a passing fireman in a red truck calmed my panic with, “I’ll take care of this.” My savior, not on a white horse. Soon, the victim was back in his chair and in a volley of thank yous, I scurried to the car.
Carol Skahen (Photo by Evan Brockett)
On seeing my light skin, the nurse asked my father, you sure she’s yours? Of course he was sure. He’d braced his hands on mama’s belly and coaxed me into this world. We delighted in burrowing our fingers into each other’s Afros, my father on his knees, me on my tiptoes. Wary of our kindred spirits, my mother took me away. Seeing my mother’s white complexion, melanin blooming in my skin, they asked, You sure she’s yours? Of course she was sure. She’d delivered me, read to me, pointed out the constellations. Consider giving her away, they said.
Gila K. Berryman (Photo by Greg Rakozy)
He turned a basement storage space into a darkroom where strips of gray photo negatives dangled, waiting to be transformed into images of his children and his wife. Pictures that would come to life when light, paper, and chemical baths revealed hands, a face, a mood, a place. Some remain even now, many years later: prints and curling film created just yards away from a fist-sized hook driven into a ceiling beam. I’ve often wondered if he had considered hanging first, before choosing a shotgun fired in his truck on a dirt road.
Katherine Houston (Photo by Caleb Minear)
A Perfect Moment
I held a piece of chicken wire in place as my daughter twist-tied the other end to a pole. We were protecting our vegetable garden from hungry wildlife. My gaze settled on a leaf of a lilac bush, a glorious creation, perfect in shape and form, fluttering gently from its stem. I looked up to the treetops, grand beings of earth and sky, filtered sunlight onto my face. All of us, happy to be alive. I closed my eyes and heard the song of birds, spreading the word.
Marie Davidson (Photo by Charlotte Coneybeer)
Aren’t all babies born still? Those I have seen eject from the birth canal, including my two, came rigid, slick, unmoving from their cramped closet. In the first breathless seconds, any newborn looks dead. Eyes clamped tight against the glare, they must jump between worlds, like fish flying out of water onto dry land. Jerking, as if to life, they thrash, then wail. My sister’s baby didn’t make the leap, or else he jumped through a different door. I press my cheek to his. Swallow his scent. Earth. Water. Fire. Air.
Leslie Prpich (Photo by Aditya Romansa, courtesy of Unsplash)
I asked my mother what she thought the meaning of it all might be. I was interested to know whether, after nine decades of it, she might have a clue. Do you mean what are we here for? she asked. Where she was involved, she liked to be clear about things. Ya, that’s another way of looking at it, I confirmed. After a moment, she said, I think we’re here to be kind to each other. But she didn’t sound very definite.
Gillian Rennie (Photo by Juan Pablo Rodriquez, courtesy of Unsplash)
The dude was deft but it was still hubris for him to stand over me with his uncovered coffee mug on a crowded subway train, holding it with his ring-and-middle-fingers while his remaining digits grasped the metal pole to keep him from tumbling as the thumb on his other hand pecked at his phone, leaving me anxious, alert for the possibility of a scalding assault to my transit tranquility.
David M. Barish (Photo courtesy of Unsplash)
And Now We’re Even
As the upperclassman parked his baby blue car, I realized we weren’t going to lunch. I resisted his touch, saying I’ll report you to the principal. He said he would tell everyone that I had gone all the way. Liar, liar, I yelled, until he turned on the engine and drove back to school, distracted enough not to notice me pulling up my skirt to release a long stream of pee on his tweedy blue gray upholstery and then, safely back, slamming the door hard, putting a wall between me, the stink, and the stinker.
Renee Moses (Photo by Ryan Tauss, Unsplash)
I’m dropped into my origin story with a bruised head and heart. My father says he remembers a lamb’s throat being slit open for a holiday as a boy. My cousin says she is a dancer, she is beauty personified, she is flesh of my flesh. My father’s cousin says Rabin was killed here at a rally by a right-wing Orthodox Jew who opposed a peaceful solution. “I hope he’s in jail forever,” he says, pointing to the spot as we drive by. An intricate Arab-Jewish pattern lain over these hills – the orange, grey, white, and blue.
I hear her crying and spot her: head bowed, sunglasses shielding her eyes, crouched, rocking at the base of a Macy’s denim display. I approach tentatively, and ask if she’s okay. She removes her glasses and I notice the dark circles, disheveled hair and wonder when she last slept, showered. A hospital visitor sticker clings to her rumpled t-shirt. I open my arms. She steps into my embrace, and we are like awkward teenagers, slow dancing. “My mom’s dying,” she says. “I’m so sad.” I hold her so she’s not alone, so I’ll never forget, so we hear each other’s breath.
Strangers on the Street
As I crossed the street at rush hour, I saw the woman who shares my name crossing in the opposite direction. We’ve never met but I found her on Facebook the day he told me about her. I clicked through her photos, trying to understand why she won him. She was elegant and posed by beaches and mountaintops. I didn’t want him, not anymore, but I hated her for being everything I wasn’t. She passed without looking, because to her, I was just another nameless face.
If you knew that gravity would reverse itself and the walls of space flatten like a cardboard box, would you still jump so high?
Tom McGohey (Photographer unknown.)
Someone Else’s Life Flashes Before Me
From my moving car, I see a magical residence downslope through the trees. I am going too fast, and the glimpse only lasts about 1.35 seconds. A pink bus is surrounded by a broad blue deck filled with rose, fuchsia, and violet. A woman in pink plaid, maybe gingham, is walking on the deck. I think she is a natural beauty who doesn’t need make-up but wears lots of it anyway, and catches one off-guard with her sharp wit. There is no point in even thinking of a life with her, for the wont of a pink bus.
On summer nights, my father stood resolutely on the porch to listen for thunder, to observe lightning. When that lightning cracked the sky and lit the world the color of steel, my father’s rules were absolute: No telephone, no television, no shower. During a particularly window-rattling storm, Dad rushed us into the ’65 Malibu, sure that the car, with its rubber tires, was the safest place to sit out an electrical storm. My father belted us three kids together in the backseat, the silver buckle pressing against my belly, the car never moving off the driveway.
Forty-four satin buttons ran up my spine, holding me tight in the shiny ivory wedding gown. My size 12 feet were tucked inside ballet slippers, trying to look elegant but I felt like a mixed-up kid dressed for Halloween. Walking down the aisle I saw my brother, my keeper, my truth teller, the only one who said what others wouldn’t. That he never liked him. The heaviness of the dress weighed me down. There were twelve steps to the chuppah. Then five. And in that last step and I knew for sure I was making a mistake.
I was working at a music shop when a man walked in carrying a small instrument. He placed it on the counter, unrolling the rags like bandages. The instrument was a sunburst, A-model mandolin, rounded and full as a teardrop. “Yesterday, this belonged to my daughter,” he said. He looked at me and I suddenly felt the energy in grief. It was a sweaty, palpable sting. I read the details of the accident later in the paper. And as I read, the storeroom grew warm, like a hundred string instruments were vibrating in the air, performing a private elegy.
The Perfume of the Dying
A dense, sweet smell fills the hospital room, like October orchards full of fermenting fruit. They tell me it is the scent of the dying, and not unusual for my aunt’s kind of cancer. How fitting, I think. She always entered a room on a cloud of perfume, usually something musky that hung in the air like hummingbirds. What I wouldn’t give to spray some on her wrists now. Instead, I watch her breath slow. I take her translucent hand. I inhale the perfume of the dying. Her scent lingers long after she is gone, just as it always has.
My sweaty torso is slumped over his legs as I face his feet. We lie like this for some time, quiet, our breaths slowing. I look up and notice his toenails. Too long. They need a trim. I offer. “Sure,” he says. I kneel in front of him. The light is soft from the small bedside lamp; the room is warm from our lovemaking. Small wedges of hard nail fall to the floor, my free hand holding his octogenarian foot gently in place. I feel a deep sense of purpose and privilege; what we do when love is complete.
Nina B. Lichtenstein
The shuttle driver monologues about his family in a desperately friendly voice. His oldest is Jeff, Jr; his daughter Unique gave him his young grandchild. Like a man pinned against a wall trying to humanize himself before a heartless mob; like by blurting out the names of his loved ones it will grind our eyeless apathy to a halt. We do not lift our faces from our phone screens, though as the shuttle speeds through a red light, a soft bark of condemnation begins to surge.
Kristine Langley Mahler
He said it was like being crucified alive. He submitted to therapy and passed a lie detector test. The therapist said he didn’t have a sex problem. But what could the headmaster do? His name was in the papers, on Boston talk radio. He was my teacher in high school, a favorite. Cheering all those teams, loudly with his cowbell, had been a waste, he said. Now he is dedicating himself to the elderly, combing the hair of a woman in hospice, holding the hand of another, telling me nobody should have to die alone.
Her hair a tangled bundle of flyaway wheat, tiny toes gripping the crisp terrain, she toddles away, chubby fingers sweeping aside the silver-grey taffeta I made her wear. Her two older brothers pursue her clumsily, but she laughs, mellifluous squeal piercing the early-day exurban hush. These gadflies can’t really catch her; no, not yet. Already they’re too laden with their ages’ rigors: shoe tying, potty training. Invisible, invincible – she propels her twelve-month self forward, joy imbuing her with sylphish grace, supernatural speed. Nothing can capture her, but this photo.
Mindy Watson (Photo by Mindy Watson)
My white friends want me to read their fortunes in coffee grounds. I do, but I make it up. I sit on an oriental rug from J.C. Penney’s, stare into the meaningless black smudge, and suddenly develop an accent. Offer images like, “A woman reaches toward nothing…” “… A sloth eyes a mannequin while dancing.” In coffee grounds, in my life, everything is symbols. I’m told that coffee served without spilling means you’ll find a husband. Am I alone because I let the pot boil over? I serve coffee but say nothing. There’s a drop on the tray. I let them interpret.
Katie J. Beberian
Meeting Primo Levi
One day in Turin, I met a man twice my age whose shy, bespectacled face had looked long into human darkness. In Auschwitz, he said, they took away your clothes, money, photos, past, future – your language, even. Many died of despair, but he saw one man simulate washing himself to survive. I thought to myself, he is a saint. Fifteen years later, when the radio in my kitchen announced his suicide, I staggered against the fridge, yelling Goddammit, the Nazis got him after all.
“Think the home team will lose again?” my younger son asked with a sigh. His enthusiasm was crippled by his eye for athletic prowess. For my older son and me, the outcome was irrelevant. We savored the sharp crack of the bat, the tinny organ music, and the tantalizing aroma of nacho cheese mingling with sizzling red hots. Our muscles tensed, propelling us toward every foul ball or free T-shirt. The magic of the ballpark settled upon us, and we wore it as proudly as you would a cloak of sand after a day at the beach.
My little sister used to beat her head against the wall when my parents fought. She wanted them to stop. They heard her once, but they argued more. I was never going to be like them. There would be no fighting. My daughter wasn’t going to be pulled into my marital problems. If things got bad, I’d get a divorce. But when I think of the popcorn wall that my sister and I shared, I don’t think of my marriage. I’m just ashamed that I didn’t stop that little girl from hurting herself.
Frederick Charles Melancon
Another Guy’s Shoes
We were at a Taco Bell when a skinny guy wearing saggy jeans, faded Oakland A’s t-shirt, and royal blue Nikes comes over. “Wanna buy some shoes?” he asked. Mine were New Balance. My husband’s were sale sneakers from Big Five. The guy repeated his question, lifting one foot and wagging it. “Brand new. Only put them on to walk here.” If we bought them, what was he was going to walk home in? “No, man. Thanks,” my husband said. The guy nodded and headed over to another customer, treading lightly, as if his feet weren’t quite touching the ground.
Photos by Ellen Blum Barish except where noted. Copyright 2018.
Keri Mangis is a freelance writer, teacher, and speaker. She is a columnist for Elephant Journal and her work has appeared in The Good Men Project, The Sunlight Press, Grown and Flown, Rebelle Society and Literary Mama. She lives in Minneapolis with her husband and two daughters.
Katelyn Thomas is a writer, poet and photographer from Cecil County, Maryland whose work has been published in Califragile and One Sentence Poems.
Karen Zey is a Canadian writer from Pointe-Claire, Quebec. Her work has appeared in The Brevity Blog, Cleaver, Crack the Spine, Hippocampus, Memoir Magazine, and Prick of the Spindle. Karen can be found on Twitter @zippyzey or at www.karenzey.com.
Dara Dokas is the author of three books for children. She also has had two essays published in The Christian Science Monitor’s Home Forum. She is currently pursuing an MFA in creative writing at Hamline University in St. Paul, Minnesota.
Will McMillan’s work has been featured in Nailed, The Sun, Thread, Sweet, Cold Creek Review as well as in This American Life. He is a former Portland, Oregonian who lives in New York City.
Carol Skahen is a retired schoolteacher and writer who lives in Chicago. This is her first published piece.
Gila K. Berryman’s work has appeared in Lilith Magazine, Entropy, Mobius and is forthcoming in Transition Magazine. She received her MFA from New York University and is working on her first novel.
Katherine Houston is a Kalamazoo, Michigan-based nonfiction writer who has worked in print production, advertising, and nonprofit marketing and is currently marketing manager for the Kalamazoo Institute of Arts. She’s been published in Catapult Magazine, Topology Magazine, and the International Journal of the W.K. Kellogg Foundation.
Marie Davidson is a writer and psychologist living in Glenview, Illinois whose essays have been published in From Oy to Joy, From There to Here and Thread.
Leslie Prpich writes in unceded Gitxsan territory in northern British Columbia. She is working on a book of stories that spotlight women’s roles in the local history, and she blogs at www.commatology.com.
Gillian Rennie lives in the Eastern Cape of South Africa. She teaches in the School of Journalism and Media Studies at Rhodes University. She was twice selected to be a USC/Getty Arts Journalism Fellow in Los Angeles and her work has appeared in two Sol Plaatje European Union Poetry Award collections; Adults Only, a Short.Sharp.Stories. anthology; and on SLiPnet.
David M. Barish is a Chicago-area writer and storyteller whose work has been published Story Club Magazine.
Renee Moses grew up in Brooklyn and now considers Chicago her home. This is her first published essay.
Annette Covrigaru is a queer American-Israeli writer based in Brooklyn, N.Y. They were a Lambda Literary Emerging LGBTQ Voices nonfiction fellow and writer-in-residence in 2014 and 2017, respectively. Their work has appeared or is forthcoming in The Kaaterskill Basin Review, TQ Review, and Emerge. They are the editor and creator of All Things Jesbian, an LGBTQIA Jew(ish) litzine (allthingsjesbian.com). Annette is currently completing a master’s degree in Holocaust Studies through the University of Haifa.
Jennifer Lang’s essays have appeared in Under the Sun, Assay, Ascent, The Coachella Review, Hippocampus Magazine, and Full Grown People. Honors include Pushcart Prize and Best American Essays nominations and finalist in 2017 Crab Orchard Review’s Literary Nonfiction Contest. Find her at http://israelwritersalon.com and follow her @JenLangWrites as she writes her first memoir.
Heather Mangan is a writer and storyteller from South Dakota who currently lives in Chicago. She blogs at heathermangan.com.
Tom McGohey is a retired professor who taught Composition and directed the Writing Center at Wake Forest University and lives in Newbern, Virginia. His essay published in Fourth Genre was selected as a Notable Essay in Best American Essays and was nominated for a Pushcart Prize.
Richard LeBlond is a retired biologist living in North Carolina whose essays and photographs have appeared in Montreal Review, High Country News, Compose, New Theory, Lowestoft Chronicle, and Still Point Arts Quarterly. His work has been nominated for Best American Travel Writing and Best of the Net.
Judy Bolton-Fasman’s creative nonfiction has appeared in many literary venues. She writes about culture and arts for a variety of outlets. You can find out more at www.thejudychronicles.com.
Lori Dube is a freelance writer, social worker and life coach. Her writing has appeared in The Chicago Tribune, JUF News, Crain’s Chicago Business and Make it Better Magazine.
Rachel Hoge is a Tennessee native whose work has appeared or is forthcoming in The Rumpus, Ravishly, The Washington Post, Paste Magazine, Catapult, and others. She’s an MFA candidate at the University of Central Arkansas, a previous intern at the Oxford American and BookPage. She’s at work on her first book of nonfiction. You can follow her on Twitter @hoge_rachel.
Kim O’Connell is a writer based in Arlington, Virginia, whose articles and essays have appeared in The New York Times, The Washington Post, Ladies Home Journal, Brain, Child, PsychologyToday.com, unFold Poetry and Little Patuxent Review. She has been a writer in residence at the Virginia Center for the Creative Arts and was the first-ever writer in residence at Shenandoah National Park.
Nina B. Lichtenstein is a storyteller and teacher who lives in Maine. Her essays have appeared in The Washington Post, Lilith, The Brevity Blog, and Literary Mama, among other places. Her book, Sephardic Women’s Voices: Out of North Africa, was just published.
Kristine Langley Mahler’s nonfiction has been recently published or is forthcoming in Crab Orchard Review, Quarter After Eight, Sweet, Tahoma Literary Review, and the Brevity Nonfiction Blog. She is a graduate student in Omaha, Nebraska.
Kurt Mullen is a writer who lives in Newburyport, Massachusetts. His work has appeared in Powder, Paddler, Canoe & Kayak and Berkshire Magazine.
Mindy Watson is a DC/Northern Virginia-based creative nonfiction writer and writer/editor. Her nonfiction has appeared in Ars Medica and her poetry is forthcoming in The Quarterday Review. .
Katie J. Beberian is a writer who teaches composition in Fresno, California.
Michael Rabiger is a filmmaker, educator and writer on film directing. He is working on a biography of Thomas Hardy.
Andrea Isiminger‘s work has appeared in several anthologies and online at Chicago Literati, The Vignette Review, Mamalode and Transitions Abroad. She lives in Madrid, Spain.
Frederick Charles Melancon is a teacher and a writer. He is a native of New Orleans and he currently lives in Mississippi with his wife and daughter. Premier edition: August 2016.
Jacqueline Doyle‘s essays have appeared in PANK, Monkeybicycle, Sweet, 100 Word Story and Quarter After Eight and forthcoming in Post Road and The Pinch. She lives in the San Francisco Bay Area. Premier edition: August 2016.